Hey everyone. I thought it would be interesting to have a thread about why you see escorts, how old you currently are and how long you've been doing it for.
I understand some people won't feel comfortable sharing all details, so share as little or as much as you like. I'll start.
So I'm currently 27 (28 soon) and I've been seeing escorts since I was 22.
The reason I see escorts is a sad story. Since my childhood to now, I've played video games. Video games as an adult aren't such a bad thing in moderation, but during my childhood I basically did nothing but play video games.
In primary school I used to go to a mates house a little bit and I played at my local soccer club, but by high school that all ended.
Primary school and high school are crucial times for a person to learn how to socialise and I basically completely missed it all, especially with women. I can almost count how many times I spoke to women in my high school yeas.
On-top of this, I was a little overweight and got bullied which destroyed my self esteem. Prior to this, I didn't have a great time with my two older brothers who generally treated me like crap.
I had never really known about escorts except in movies and even then I thought it was only in America for some reason. One day while working at Woolworths, in the lunch room I saw an older employee looking at the personals section in the newspaper. I think one time I stood over him and had a quick look. I became curious.
I then had a look at the personals section myself one day and thought about booking someone even though I was nervous as hell.
At this stage in my life I was a virgin, I had never kissed a woman or seen a woman naked.
Anyway as you can imagine, most of the adverts were Asian women, but I wanted to see an Australian.
I eventually found an Australian escort and booked her. She had E cup implants and I was in shock when she basically stripped naked shortly after the door was closed. She was very generous and basically gave me a full hour for the price of 30 mins because she knew I was a virgin.
Anyway we had sex, but I was so nervous that I just couldn't finish, but I was still hooked on the whole thing.
A month or so later I booked her again and the same thing happened. I was contemplating not continuing this and trying to lose my virginity the normal way but after some thinking of my circumstances I realised that wouldn't happen.
Anyway I ended up booking another lady and I think maybe if I used a thinner condom I would be able to ejaculate. It worked, however the condom broke haha. It was nice, but for most people, your first time isn't that amazing.
Anyway from then on I've been addicted and spent an absurd amount of money booking escorts.
Other than the money, the worst part is I feel I have messed up myself sexually, not really finding much joy from sex anymore. Like it's nice but it's nothing like it was when I first started.
My father and mother taught my nothing about women. I definitely have improved over the years but to this day, I struggle to socialise with both men and women, but more with women and I still have an insane amount of work to do on myself before anything can happen naturally.
Over the years, I tried to date or find a girlfriend on dating apps and I've been extremely burnt/hurt because in my experience women these days are incredibly picky online and unless you have your life in order (or at least appear to) then you're basically a peasant to them.
From all my experiences, I often believe I'll never be normal. Anyway that's my story.