The girl at the dog park
I met her at the dog park,
it was an eternity ago it seems,
I nstantly was under her spell
at last I had met the girl of my dreams.
Every day I would return, hoping that she'd be there,
I took things slowly, I didn't wanna scare her away,
I was totally obsessed with her, I was smitten,
Months later she told me she thought I was gay.
A few long weeks passed by,
she invited me to her apartment for a drink,
I played it cool, didn't wanna appear needy or too keen,
But my heart was beating so fast I could barely even think.
Soon we spent every spare moment together,
We'd talk and drink on her balcony night after night,
She was beautiful, she was absolutely stunning,
Her eyes sparkling like diamonds in the moonlight.
I was obsessed, infatuated and intrigued by her,
I loved her laugh and the way her smile lit up the night.
I wanted so badly to hold her in my arms
But I was like a deer trapped in a cars headlights.
A couple more weeks passed by
She sent a text saying she could wait no more,
She told me she wanted to get to know me
And to be alone together behind closed doors.
That night we made love in the swimming pool,
It was a scorching hot summers night,
The heavens opened up and the rain came pouring down,
But we never even noticed, cos everything felt so right.
As time passed by we grew inseparable,
but now there was a sadness deep in her eyes,
She tried so hard to disguise it,
But the hands of time have a way of revealing all lies.
It was if she was afraid to be happy,
Afraid to trust and let me into her heart,
The secret she kept was slowly destroying us,
I guess she knew it would be this way from the start.
She told me she worked nights at the casino,
So I went there to see her as a surprise,
But no one had ever even heard of her,
I became suspicious and wondered why would she lie?
Our relationship had become a crazy rollercoaster,
I knew deep in my heart that she had a secret to keep,
Then late one cold night she pocket dialled my voicemail,
It was in the early hours and I was fast asleep.
She was in conversation with a taxi driver,
Told him she had just flown back from interstate,
She told him how she worked in a brothel
and how much money this trip she had made.
I played the voicemail over and over,
I was in disbelief, I couldn't believe my own ears,
I already had doubts and suspicions,
but now confirmed were my darkest fears.
I felt betrayed, so cold and numb right to the core,
As if a cold steel dagger had ripped through my heart,
I couldn't believe the hand of fate could be so cruel,
My whole world was shattered I was broken, torn apart.
We soon after parted ways and said our last goodbye,
both knowing it was the end, the only possible way,
But I just couldn't get her outta my head and heart,
She consumed my thoughts, every moment of every day.
My pride was broken, bruised and wounded,
my eyes now held a cold and icy stare,
The thought of her being with another man
was so much more than I could bear.
Days dragged by so slowly,
I lay awake every night unable to sleep,
I wished my memory had an erase button
but I was in over my head and by now in way too deep.
She told me she only wanted to be with me,
promised to find a normal job and give it away,
So I swallowed my pride and followed my heart
but 18 months later she still sleeps with strangers for pay.
I thought I had managed to come to terms with things,
Tried to push thoughts of her with others from my head,
But the more of myself I gave the more and more she took
broken dreams and a broken heart are all I have left.
I know things woulda been so different
if only she coulda flicked off the hooker switch,
I know somewhere hiding deep down in her soul,
She has so much to offer and so much love to give.
I know I will never ever be able to forget her,
The girl of my dreams she will forever be,
I will travel the highway of life alone, without her,
Without my heart and with a soul that can never be set free.