Depression......

[Miss Chloe]

I had depression for a while from about 15yrs old. I was very isolated and even with medication, tried to end my life. I've suffered anxiety, panic attacks and OCD to name but a few.

The love of those surrounding you is not always as obvious as they may assume. I make a conscious effort now days to tell people every day that they are loved, even if they are only passing through my world for a short time. The love of strangers can be more powerful than family or friends. I would tell myself "of course they love me, they have no choice." And it was the kindness of strangers, who have no reason to be kind, that saved me.

These days I find I am happy with my life (even as a working girl!) and no longer take any medication. Some days are harder than others but that's ok. To find the beauty in small things, that is very powerful. Just live in the moment and remember; Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about!

Love Always,

Miss Paige
Xx

 

[EmilyDarke]

I have suffered depression, anxiety and other mental illness related problems since I was about 14, so that's almost half my life.
Alcohol and drug abuse, dangerous relationships, self harm and attempting suicide, you name it I tried it.

I've always been on some form of medication, for me coming off them is not an option.
Every day is an uphill battle but I found that CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) helped me the most, basically its changing your way of thinking so you look at problems logically rather than emotionally.

I found that the Hyperbole and a Half cartoons really sum up depression for me, and have helped me explain it to those who do not understand.

 

[Linda]

one thing i always say once you have hit rock bottom there is only one way left to go
UP UP UP

this helped me to pick up my scattered pieces and move on up

 

[Lucy Lake]

I have suffered depression my whole life and am admittedly on medication.
But what my condition has taught me is that "I feel". And I would not change that for anything. It has taught me haw to relate to myself and the world.
The truth is we are in this world as much in our pain as in our joy.
My feelings are deeper, my knowledge is deeper and my joy and happiness is deeper because I know both ends of the spectrum of the human condition.
My depression is worn like a badge of honor and it is my belief it makes me a better person and better at my job.
I am truly grateful for my life - the good, the bad, and the ugly!!!!!

 

[HappyPirate]

Ahoy;- Thanks for sharing and well written Lucy Lake

I have suffered depression my whole life and am admittedly on medication.
But what my condition has taught me is that "I feel". And I would not change that for anything. It has taught me haw to relate to myself and the world.
The truth is we are in this world as much in our pain as in our joy.
My feelings are deeper, my knowledge is deeper and my joy and happiness is deeper because I know both ends of the spectrum of the human condition.
My depression is worn like a badge of honor and it is my belief it makes me a better person and better at my job.
I am truly grateful for my life - the good, the bad, and the ugly!!!!!

 

[asianguy77]

I guess with Depression is it can strike anyone no matter their race, sex, class. You can't tell if someone has Depression, as outwardly they can project a bubbly, upbeat personality but inside they a face with turmoil.

This brings to mind, the sad news I recall of the Channel 10 newsreader Charmaine Dragun, who took her own life by jumping off the cliff. She seem like she had everything going for her and she also appeared always so cheerful when reading the news. So sad she felt like taking her own life was the only way out, even with the supportive family she had around her was not enough.

 

[Tatiyana]

I suffered from depression when I was teenager.In these days when I feel the approach of depression I occupy my free time by hobby...travel...chocolate...shopping...I try to avoid medications...Positive thinking ,believe the dreams,to improve my spiritual live-all this stuff will help overcome depression...

 

[Raye@Langtrees]

Yes all of us have faced some sort of depressive event in our lives at some stage or another. But we endure, we get to love ourselves again, we realise we were not the only ones......loneliness is the worst, surround yourself with positive love......​

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[homer]

I guess with Depression is it can strike anyone no matter their race, sex, class. You can't tell if someone has Depression, as outwardly they can project a bubbly, upbeat personality but inside they a face with turmoil.

This brings to mind, the sad news I recall of the Channel 10 newsreader Charmaine Dragun, who took her own life by jumping off the cliff. She seem like she had everything going for her and she also appeared always so cheerful when reading the news. So sad she felt like taking her own life was the only way out, even with the supportive family she had around her was not enough.

It was a shock to me to see a lovely presenter on TV to take her own life. My 1st thought was tragic...her depression must have haunted her so badly. She was so composed when she was on tv though. For years i did think about not living but not taking my own life, i had low tolerance to pain or maybe it's a phobia. Perhaps i could die in my sleep and put myself out of my own misery. Glad that didnt eventuate.

 

[Raye@Langtrees]

I read somewhere, recently, that a healthy hug is one which is honest and last at least 20 seconds. Anything less and the recipient doesn't register it as being real. I guess it takes us that long to believe it.

Hi there Spikey

A hug is the most soothing of all physical contacts that you can have ...Everyone needs a cuddle regardless , if you male or female. The comfort and security of warm arms around
You is electric.


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[johnlou]

not feeling good today but much better than yesterday , Wednesday morning between the hours of 12.00 midnight and 4.30 am some low life's broke into my home whilst i was asleep and stole my mobile phone and wallet ( no money ) and with these 2 items they have all the info to steal my identity and borrow money against my name . yesterday my depression was really bad that i looked for any reason to loose my temper ' early yesterday i went to the main-roads off to renew my drivers licence as i had the planes for a week , they refused, because of no cards with my signature, i then phoned main-roads office and was told the same. and i did what i should not have done , ever, lost my cool, to someone who is not responsible for what had happened .

not easy keeping your cool when you are very upset .

feeling better but i wish i had some spare cash to visit my reg

 

[johnlou]

PS after i lost my temper @ the lady on the phone i felt real good for about 5 minutes , then i felt ashamed with what i had to the lady trying to help me :-(

 

[homer]

Understandable JL....I'd beef up on the security around the house if I were you. Whack in a motion sensored camera. Put steel bars on the windows and doors. Electric fence the whole shebang.

 

[Raye@Langtrees]

Homer nailed it JT........need to get your Fortress ready with just a couple of nessessaries



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[Tania Admin]

not feeling good today but much better than yesterday , Wednesday morning between the hours of 12.00 midnight and 4.30 am some low life's broke into my home whilst i was asleep and stole my mobile phone and wallet ( no money ) and with these 2 items they have all the info to steal my identity and borrow money against my name . yesterday my depression was really bad that i looked for any reason to loose my temper ' early yesterday i went to the main-roads off to renew my drivers licence as i had the planes for a week , they refused, because of no cards with my signature, i then phoned main-roads office and was told the same. and i did what i should not have done , ever, lost my cool, to someone who is not responsible for what had happened .

not easy keeping your cool when you are very upset .

feeling better but i wish i had some spare cash to visit my reg

If it's any consolation I feel crap right now to. I guess now I've aired the yuck I'm reliving it to a degree. Part of the process I guess,, grrrrr, hate feeling this way

 

[johnlou]

If it's any consolation I feel crap right now to. I guess now I've aired the yuck I'm reliving it to a degree. Part of the process I guess,, grrrrr, hate feeling this way

yep me to i like to trust every one

 

[homer]

Homer nailed it JT........need to get your Fortress ready with just a couple of nessessaries

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Only in self defense milady. If the intruder wields a knife or weapon of minor obstruction, you can then wield your weapon of mass protrusion and have a death match.

 

[Thatguy]

So is this a private club.. or can i join?..

 

[Obbie]

W

So is this a private club.. or can i join?..

Welcome anytime mate

 

[Thatguy]

Thanks..

W

Welcome anytime mate

 

[HappyPirate]

Ahoy;- Well its the New Year, we have all gotten past the Xmas and New Year period, some off us are still on Holidays and some off us are heading back to Work.
So, I have pulled out this old Thread becouse I think its a important subject that we all need to look at and reflect upon. In my experience it is also a topic that always seems to re-appear in Januray. Anyway if you feel the need to share a thought please do. Do not feel alone remember depression has no bundaries it effects Men and Women at any age

Ahoy;- Depression, Anixiety, stress
Beyondblue is a great site, information on depression.
Mantherapy is another good site as well.
Most guys will experience some form of depression during there life, a lot of guys do not even understand if they have it.
http://mantherapy.org.au/?gclid=CLex_ues5rwCFcYzpAodqU4AWA

 

[Pandar. B. Ear]

There's a bloke at work who has come back not himself but won't say much about it. Trying to work out how to help, at the moment we are all just watching him

 

[Sir Cruiser]

Having logged on early this morning and saw this thread, i had a read of the first couple of pages, for obvious reasons, it struck a chord. I am now waiting for a repair so i can get to work, having lost $200 so far today.

I have had two major sessions of depression and whilst anyone who suffers from it will know, it never really leaves you. My "first" bout saw me in bed, literally for 6 months, i just could not face anything, i barely eat or did anything and as you can imagine, it was a long road to recovery. My "second" bout lasted over 4 years and to a certain extent still grabs me even now. After a life changing event, my personality changed, my already detached and distant relationship was even more isolated and although i had forgotten what intimacy and closeness felt before, it was magnified. I was alone, sometimes surrounded by people but always isolated. Life was unbearably, i no longer worked, suffered from anger bouts, was so emotional that i could and did cry if someone said "hello". Like everybody that suffers, i knew it was not right but did not know how to cope. I had no professional help for the first 12 months and when i did, it was of little help due to the passage of time. I searched for a connection, some intimacy with rnt ladies and always felt dirty and ashamed, not there is anything wrong with rnt, far from it, it was my self worth that made me feel that way. I use humour and even avoidance to cope with life, about 12 months ago, i started getting back into work and being self employed, still on my own but coping. I was on meds for a couple of years but they did little for me apart from keeping the nightmares at bay more often than not. but after finding TS forum a few months ago, i have found a community if people that i can share jokes, comments and feel part of life again. I do not think depression will ever totally go from my life but having taught myself how to cope with most things, i will survive and i never give up entirely and hopefully that will be the case.

If anyone feels the need to chat or just wants someone to listen or connect to, they are welcome to PM me anytime. I do not repeat anything nor hint or imply something that is private, to anyone. Apart from learning some new things, things that i have not experienced and/or had so little knowledge of before, i have had my fair share of life's experience. I am not a know it all, but i am happy to help others where and when i can.

Hats off to all who have and are suffering depression.

Fn. I have not included some details of the causes or the physical effects as these might be recognised by outside entities . I have no problem privately taking about these tho.

 

[HappyPirate]

Ahoy Mr Cruiser, Thank-You for sharing and been available to anyone who wishes to have a chat.
I wish you all the best in Life, Cheers the Rum on Meeeee

Having logged on early this morning and saw this thread, i had a read of the first couple of pages, for obvious reasons, it struck a chord. I am now waiting for a repair so i can get to work, having lost $200 so far today.

I have had two major sessions of depression and whilst anyone who suffers from it will know, it never really leaves you. My "first" bout saw me in bed, literally for 6 months, i just could not face anything, i barely eat or did anything and as you can imagine, it was a long road to recovery. My "second" bout lasted over 4 years and to a certain extent still grabs me even now. After a life changing event, my personality changed, my already detached and distant relationship was even more isolated and although i had forgotten what intimacy and closeness felt before, it was magnified. I was alone, sometimes surrounded by people but always isolated. Life was unbearably, i no longer worked, suffered from anger bouts, was so emotional that i could and did cry if someone said "hello". Like everybody that suffers, i knew it was not right but did not know how to cope. I had no professional help for the first 12 months and when i did, it was of little help due to the passage of time. I searched for a connection, some intimacy with rnt ladies and always felt dirty and ashamed, not there is anything wrong with rnt, far from it, it was my self worth that made me feel that way. I use humour and even avoidance to cope with life, about 12 months ago, i started getting back into work and being self employed, still on my own but coping. I was on meds for a couple of years but they did little for me apart from keeping the nightmares at bay more often than not. but after finding TS forum a few months ago, i have found a community if people that i can share jokes, comments and feel part of life again. I do not think depression will ever totally go from my life but having taught myself how to cope with most things, i will survive and i never give up entirely and hopefully that will be the case.

If anyone feels the need to chat or just wants someone to listen or connect to, they are welcome to PM me anytime. I do not repeat anything nor hint or imply something that is private, to anyone. Apart from learning some new things, things that i have not experienced and/or had so little knowledge of before, i have had my fair share of life's experience. I am not a know it all, but i am happy to help others where and when i can.

Hats off to all who have and are suffering depression.

Fn. I have not included some details of the causes or the physical effects as these might be recognised by outside entities . I have no problem privately taking about these tho.

 

[Obbie]

After the cancer ops radiation still finding it hard to get back on top of things I missed out on so much good work and dollars because of this and I hate it more and more every day it's not easy to get past this but I'm trying pretty hard im still recovering from the treatments just hope 2015 is a bit easier on me fingers crossed

 

[bepp]

Spose ive been depressed quite awhile now. And this year hasnt been easy,got a medical cond which worsened start of year,got couple of other conds which are under control, but that didnt stop my employer making it hard for me to keep working,had to resign had no choice.Bad enough losing my job,having 3 relatively serious med conds,which are under control,but im also on my own,me myself and i,Several times ive thought bout ending it ,hey no one'll miss me life will still go on .it' ll be fairlly easy for me to switch the lights off,just stop the treatment im doing 3 times a week ,turn of the phone ,and disappear in the darkness.Sometimes i wonder if thats the best option.My biggest problem is I dont know how to reach out for help even whfen its offered at the clinic or hospital .At least here we're anonymous

 

[Sir Cruiser]

After the cancer ops radiation still finding it hard to get back on top of things I missed out on so much good work and dollars because of this and I hate it more and more every day it's not easy to get past this but I'm trying pretty hard im still recovering from the treatments just hope 2015 is a bit easier on me fingers crossed

to an extent, although i have an idea of what you have gone through with cancer, i was lucky in that my skin cancers were detected and operated without radiation. It still took months to recover from my 3 with complications added did not help.

getting back is so hard to do, especially if you do not have support and something to focus on like work or family.

i know exactly why you hate it so much which is possibly where my use of humour comes in. I have had to accept there is nothing i can do to change the past, i can only try to build on the now for the future.

I was going to respond to bepp712 separately but i think i would end up duplicating too much. I will say that i came so close to ending my existence on a few occasions, i do not know what stopped me, possibly cowardice, possibly that i can never entirely give up on anything.

l again offer anyone to PM me, if i can help during those times provided i'm online which these days i seem to be a lot, i will be happy to do so, sometimes sharing with someone else can make a difference.

 

[XLNC]

...Several times ive thought bout ending it ,hey no one'll miss me life will still go on .it' ll be fairlly easy for me to switch the lights off,just stop the treatment im doing 3 times a week ,turn of the phone ,and disappear in the darkness.Sometimes i wonder if thats the best option.My biggest problem is I dont know how to reach out for help even whfen its offered at the clinic or hospital .At least here we're anonymous

You only need to ask, bepp. If you have regular contact with medical professionals at a clinic or hospital, that makes it even easier: let them know you've been having these dark thoughts and they will be able to put you in touch with the right people straight away. Or, of course, you can contact services like Lifeline and beyondblue directly.

When I reached my lowest point a few years ago, I was lucky in that my employer put me in touch with the mental health people at the local hospital. They were the nicest people you could hope to meet, non-judgmental and genuinely cared about my welfare at a time when I thought I was cut adrift. I had literally peered over the abyss (in the form of a cliff) and it would have been all so easy, but something made me step back and I am eternally grateful for it.

I had regular contact with them -- initially they would visit me at home daily to make sure I was safe, then when I got better, phone calls every day or two -- until I was out of danger. During this time, I also saw a psychologist. She was very nice and understood where I was in my head and helped me understand as well. (This was all covered by Medicare, I did not need to pay a cent.)

I found that just talking things through with an objective person, instead of letting things fester and snowball in my own mind, was a huge help in putting things in perspective, no matter how bad things may seem.

So do not hesitate to ask for help. I wish you well.

 

[Sir Cruiser]

You only need to ask, bepp. If you have regular contact with medical professionals at a clinic or hospital, that makes it even easier: let them know you've been having these dark thoughts and they will be able to put you in touch with the right people straight away. Or, of course, you can contact services like Lifeline and beyondblue directly.

When I reached my lowest point a few years ago, I was lucky in that my employer put me in touch with the mental health people at the local hospital. They were the nicest people you could hope to meet, non-judgmental and genuinely cared about my welfare at a time when I thought I was cut adrift. I had literally peered over the abyss (in the form of a cliff) and it would have been all so easy, but something made me step back and I am eternally grateful for it.

I had regular contact with them -- initially they would visit me at home daily to make sure I was safe, then when I got better, phone calls every day or two -- until I was out of danger. During this time, I also saw a psychologist. She was very nice and understood where I was in my head and helped me understand as well. (This was all covered by Medicare, I did not need to pay a cent.)

I found that just talking things through with an objective person, instead of letting things fester and snowball in my own mind, was a huge help in putting things in perspective, no matter how bad things may seem.

So do not hesitate to ask for help. I wish you well.

You were lucky XLNC in that yours was free, mine was not and it was very expensive. Bepp712, as XLNC says, contact the locals, get some help but remember, we are all here to help if we can

 

[Polkam]

Good luck Obbie and bepp712...