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I finally broke my silence

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Tania Admin

Today has been tough, really tough, it needed to be done but it wasnt easy.

Today I reported 2 incidents in my life, 2 incidents which have played my mind for a very long time.

The first an incident which occured in first grade primary school. It involved a male predator and a few other young girls who were in my year. I had many vague recollections of the incident but in the past few weeks crystal clear memories have brought me distress. I recalled the police coming to our school and myself lying about what had happened out of fear. It has been wrenching at my gut and i today reported my full recollections of the event.

The second incident involved a male who lived in our house for a while. My parents eventually found out what was happening and kicked him out. For reasons I won't mention he was never reported by my parents and their reason for this does not sit well with me. I know it was occurring from the same offender to other girls who were daughters of my parents friends. I have contacted my step father asking him to come forward about what he knows. My mother I really have no wish to speak to but guess I must.
All though both incidents were over 30 years ago it is never to late to come forward. The police woman I spoke with from the special unit was very kind, helpful and reassuring.
Why now? I don't know. I am not known for being backwards in coming forward but its something I just had to do now. Before today the only people who knew about the school incident was those of us who were there. I had never told anyone. The person who was living with us I have quite openly talked about what happened, though never in detail.

It's never to late to come forward, never.

I will have a trek ahead with some of this but am glad I broke my silence.
 
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estafarr

Tania - I think this is not only brave to allow yourself to confront your past but also extraordinarily brave for you to act on it - I salute you and i hope this gives you some peace in the future. Well done.
 

Dallas

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Wow that's amazing Tania, I'm proud of you. As someone that copped huge amounts of physical abuse when I was a kid it's inspirational to see something like this reported after so long. I should have done the same thing years ago but emotionally couldn't. Hope it all gets better for you from here on.
 

johnlou

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hi Tania , i applaud you :) the time must be rite for you to move on . i wish you all the best and you know you can come and be supported anytime :)

again well done
 

Ms Sue

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Well done Tanya .... Maybe we should all take a leaf out of your book.....
You must feel lighter.....
Move up and forward...............
Ms Sue
 
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Tania Admin

Thank you. But to be honest right now I want to curl into a ball and cry. And I think I will..better out than in they say....
 

DDxoxo

Live, Love & Believe
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Tania

Try living one day without any unhealthy thoughts, it may be very difficult....
But try another day until it becomes habitual.
& life will move in the direction of becoming heathly & vital & alive....



Nobody trips over mountains
It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble
Pass all the pebbles in your path & you will find
you have crossed the mountain ..........
...............r w emerson

 

Master Yoda

“Your path you must decide.”
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Tania, I acknowledge you for your courage to share these accounts. You have risen the awareness of readers that will contribute preventing someone else having to experience such events.

Thank you for thinking beyond yourself. We need more people like you in the world.
 

Alan Driver VIP Perth

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Good on you Tania, you're not the only person to suffer these sickos. Its brave of you to put it on the forum and by doing so you have shown how strong you really are.. Life will get better from now on.. Best wishes to you..:joyful:
 

svengali

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Well, this is an eye-opener to just how prevalent child sex abuse is and it is a pretty sad indictment of the way we used to raise children in our society, and, possibly still do today.

As a senior citizen I am possibly a bit more aware of the social attitudes of long ago than some other members and can vouch for the fact that reporting this matter to the Police would have been a harrowing matter for both Tania and her parents.

There was also the "golden rule" that adults were always right and a child who spoke up and tried to bring such matters to light back then was often more likely to get a belting for causing trouble than any help.

I can remember when the attitude towards a girl who reported a rape was "she must have asked for it" or "look at the way these young girls dress, no wonder she got raped" Sure, the guy was condemned but the girl and everyone in her family was also put through all kinds of hell in the press. Nothing like a bit of dirt to shift papers and that certainly hasn't changed. I call it "poor man's porn".

As to kiddie fiddlers - the same rules would have applied. The press would have been all over it, Tania and her parents would have been the subject of sidelong glances and whispered comments everywhere they went and in a small country town it could easily have become unbearable.

Far easier to sweep it under the carpet and move on but, of course, damage is done and time does not undo it. In many of the sad cases now being heard by the Royal Commission into institutional abuse it festers and poisons the victim's life for years.

For you, Tania, the good news is that victims can recover fully and "coming out" is the first step. Congratulations on having the guts to do that. The second is counselling. There are some excellent counsellors here in Perth and I am sure the Police could put you in touch with them. These people do great work either one on one or in group sessions, whichever suits you.

It is not an easy road but I wish you all the best and am confident you will overcome this.
 

Happy2

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Good for you Tania Not much I can say That previous posters haven't already said
So all the best to you and congratulations on this huge step
Well done
 

Bobofunk

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All I can say is Wow! Not just for you and the courage that this must have taken. But also for the outpouring of support from all the other members. What a great little community we have here! Stay strong, because your strength will help to encourage others to come forward.
 
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Tania Admin

Thanks Everyone.

I do hope by breaking my silence others realise they are not alone and that it's never to late to report it or talk to someone. For me in someways it's easier to talk on here than it is to someone physically in front of me. I guess that will become much easier. Funny how some things I have talked about quite openly to others in the past but now I'm finding it harder. A process I just have to go through I guess. I have contacted my mother and my step father about coming forward with the information they have and will see how that goes, though contacting them hasn't been easy either.
 

johnlou

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hi Tania , this a really good step in the direction of being healed .
 

sunyun

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Just got back on site, opened my computer and found this thread.

I applaud you Tania. Well done. it must have taken some guts, as things that close hurt to tear off. Although it may seen painful now, it will be worth it in the long run as you have finally rid yourself of it.

Cheers.
 
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Tania Admin

Thank you, all of you, so much,
I'm feeling very out of energy and tense at the moment. I'm missing my usual forum energies but am dealing with so much. Coming out as such on the forum was a huge step though I had mentioned something on the same lines a long time ago (though more gently) and find it relieving as such to air it here. At the moment I kind of feel like I want to wrap myself in cotton wool for a while, yet I want to explode,,,,a dangerous combination for me, I know myself well, and have at times been my own worst enemy though never lost my heart.
MaryAnne I love you to, I have an utmost respect for you, your drive and your wisdom and your depth.
Leigh, we never got along when I knew you many moons ago, but I believe your wish to hug me is genuine and heart felt and I mentally hug you back.
My forum friends, you all rock and hold so many of you dearly in my heart for your support.
Thank you all, so much xo
 

TheRoamingEyeball

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Huge well done Tania.

I do hope by breaking my silence others realise they are not alone and that it's never to late to report it or talk to someone.

This is spot on, colossal kudos for being strong not only for yourself but for those you give hope to via your actions.

Pedophiles need to be put behind bars for life.

I think they should be castrated. To act on such abhorrent urges means willpower is no longer an effective preventative measure.
 
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