I still am at the age of 24. That is the reason I join this forum.
While some of you start having intimate relationship at a younger age, intertwining your body with the opposite (or same) sex, I spent my time reading, learning about science and discovering the complexity of the working computers. As a result, I am now doing a postgraduate degree, as well as taking on a role as an administration member for one the world's leading computer and consumer electronics website. Surely, I have a bright career ahead of me, but I am not happy.
You can tell I am determined to excel at what I do. However, sex is my achille's heel. It is not that I don't know about it, in fact I am great with the theories from all the research journal I can access on sex topic from university library. The practical side however, is completely new to me. I refuse to accept the fact that I am behind in encounters with woman and then I lie to myself and worship Sir Newton, who dedicated his entire life to science and is suspected to remain a virgin till death.
I admire your determination for scientific achievement Sir Newton, but I believe I am just not as great as you are. The cold books and machines is no longer keeping me curious. It is the great mystery of the woman that I crave to know now (I can only know so little with books). The countless lonely nights of endless work adds further to my misery. Alas, I will avoid it no more and I am now summoning up my courage, walking down the path to indulge myself in the wonders of the female body. A journal form a boy who love science to a man. Hopefully, I am not too late on the catch up game and will soon get to know more about the practical side of this area of very specialised knowledge which I failed to aquire. Hopefully, with what I learn soon enough, I can finally have a real relationship, finding woman I can love and hopefully whoever she is, can love me back. I know the journey is long and can be very bumpy, but I think I am finally ready for it, and that is sex and adult relationship.
Too bad there is no crying emoticon on this forum. Please don't laugh and I am dead serious about not having a girl friend or even a single kiss on the lips ever in my life. Yesterday was like a time bomb that goes off. I am actually using 100% of my brain power to come up with ways to loose my virginity as well as dating like a proper adult. So I would really appreciate if you gentleman and ladies can lead me through this.
PS. Please don't nominate me to the reality show "Beauty and the Geek".