YOYO addiction to masterbating

[Indy Fire]

Weird title I know but its probably the best thing to describe my situation. For years now ever since my best friend pressured me into starting to masturbate at the age of 17 convincing me its totally natural.......still being a virgin then, I ended up having a bat at it well wasn't it wonderful I started to use anything I could find from the electric tooth brush to the good old garden hose yes in the garden I would be standing there broad daylight hosing my clit off!!! and the one climax wasn't enough for little miss Indy no never she had to do it all day.

I then hit the I don't touch my vagina oh no way im a lady stage where my tooth brush is just for my teeth and my fingers don't go south. I'm currently in this stage right now and im not sure when I will return to wonder fingers.

My last encounter did leave me on a bathroom floor for 3-4 hours playing with myself senseless and due to the equipment used basically pinched the loose skin on my clit not a nice experience, i remember the next morning laying in bed shaking my head to myself asking was it worth it????..........

but i am now asking myself what is wrong with me the don't stop till ya drop addiction and why???

also the answer to the previous question was it worth it, you bloody bet ya

xxxxx

 

[Lexy Of London]

Good girl Indy Fire, nothing wrong with a bit of self loving!!! If I haven't worked for a couple of days I spend a few hours in bed watching porn and masturbating until I put my neck or back out!!! It's very relaxing!!! Invest in a really good toy that you just use for yourself at home, I have had my Lelo Soraya for four years and really should upgrade by now but I am rather attached to it, literally! Hahahahaha.

See you soon my darling girl


LEXY XOX

 

[The Brood87]

Its an issue even for boys.
I experienced that and it affected my sex life cuz no one can pleasure u as urself..I would stay hard for over the hr and would not cum in a normal sexual encounter...sometimes I had to fake it to make my partner feels normal.
Its not natural and it screws ur mind. I remember doing it just out of addiction I wasn't even horny.
U need to break the circle...just go cold turky for a month..keep urself busy..move ur computer to the living room use website blockers to stop watching porn.
Get a partner.
Trust me U'll feel normal afterwards...we're humans not addicts.

 

[Mrs Langtrees]

Go for it, its a totally natural need.

 

[Indy Fire]

Its an issue even for boys.
I experienced that and it affected my sex life cuz no one can pleasure u as urself..I would stay hard for over the hr and would not cum in a normal sexual encounter...sometimes I had to fake it to make my partner feels normal.
Its not natural and it screws ur mind. I remember doing it just out of addiction I wasn't even horny.
U need to break the circle...just go cold turky for a month..keep urself busy..move ur computer to the living room use website blockers to stop watching porn.
Get a partner.
Trust me U'll feel normal afterwards...we're humans not addicts.

Well faking it is a issue for us women but good on you, you must be a one of a kind type of bloke ..I dont think i've ever met a man that would fake it for the pleasure of the woman pat on the back to you (in your sticky situation) hehehe
ill keep you posted on how im keeping. but just to confirm cold turkey means not even just a little quick rub????

xoxo Miss Indy

 

[pause78]

Can relate Indy! Yeah it's a totally natural thing to do, but if it negatively impacts other parts of your life then that's when it starts to become something to worry about.

There are bazillions of people in the same boat, my experience is just like Brood's too. In my younger days I could have sex without cumming for hours, and having to fake it to hide the fact I just wasn't going to cum. Sex became something that was totally about my partner, making sure she'd cum (over and over), but since I knew I'd never get the release unless I masturbated it was a difficult situation.

Because I'm at the point where I can only cum from masturbation, I'll leave my partner satisified and exhausted where she'll fall asleep, then quietly sneak off to masturbate 15 minutes after having sex! Damn that sounds sad writing it out!

There's a whole community around the problems that stem from masturbation addiction: https://www.reddit.com/r/nofap, http://www.nofap.com/, http://yourbrainonporn.com/, etc. Hopefully some of that info can be a little helpful for you.

Truth time: Sometimes, *blush*, some of the fantasies that get me over the line are seeing some of your photos and posts.

Weird title I know but its probably the best thing to describe my situation. For years now ever since my best friend pressured me into starting to masturbate at the age of 17 convincing me its totally natural.......still being a virgin then, I ended up having a bat at it well wasn't it wonderful I started to use anything I could find from the electric tooth brush to the good old garden hose yes in the garden I would be standing there broad daylight hosing my clit off!!! and the one climax wasn't enough for little miss Indy no never she had to do it all day.

I then hit the I don't touch my vagina oh no way im a lady stage where my tooth brush is just for my teeth and my fingers don't go south. I'm currently in this stage right now and im not sure when I will return to wonder fingers.

My last encounter did leave me on a bathroom floor for 3-4 hours playing with myself senseless and due to the equipment used basically pinched the loose skin on my clit not a nice experience, i remember the next morning laying in bed shaking my head to myself asking was it worth it????..........

but i am now asking myself what is wrong with me the don't stop till ya drop addiction and why???

also the answer to the previous question was it worth it, you bloody bet ya

xxxxx

 

[Indy Fire]

Can relate Indy! Yeah it's a totally natural thing to do, but if it negatively impacts other parts of your life then that's when it starts to become something to worry about.

There are bazillions of people in the same boat, my experience is just like Brood's too. In my younger days I could have sex without cumming for hours, and having to fake it to hide the fact I just wasn't going to cum. Sex became something that was totally about my partner, making sure she'd cum (over and over), but since I knew I'd never get the release unless I masturbated it was a difficult situation.

Because I'm at the point where I can only cum from masturbation, I'll leave my partner satisified and exhausted where she'll fall asleep, then quietly sneak off to masturbate 15 minutes after having sex! Damn that sounds sad writing it out!

There's a whole community around the problems that stem from masturbation addiction: https://www.reddit.com/r/nofap, http://www.nofap.com/, http://yourbrainonporn.com/, etc. Hopefully some of that info can be a little helpful for you.

Truth time: Sometimes, *blush*, some of the fantasies that get me over the line are seeing some of your photos and posts.

ohhh pause it hasn't had a effect on my life yet but it does affect my walking when times are tough (super horny F me styles) i extra cross my legs over when i walk so my lingerie rubs on my clit.

xx

 

[The Brood87]

Well faking it is a issue for us women but good on you, you must be a one of a kind type of bloke ..I dont think i've ever met a man that would fake it for the pleasure of the woman pat on the back to you (in your sticky situation) hehehe
ill keep you posted on how im keeping. but just to confirm cold turkey means not even just a little quick rub????

xoxo Miss Indy

Unfortunate I liked the girl so much
..that I had to fake it 4 her.

 

[Dallas]

I agree with @The Brood87 , as a guy if you are forced to masturbate regularly because of the lack of a partner, then long term it really affects your ability to orgasm during sex as it changes your sensitivity and mindset, well I find anyway. I always wondered if it was like this for others though, although I can't imagine women having the issue of not being able to get a partner.

 

[AndyRew]

I agree with @The Brood87 , as a guy if you are forced to masturbate regularly because of the lack of a partner, then long term it really affects your ability to orgasm during sex as it changes your sensitivity and mindset, well I find anyway. I always wondered if it was like this for others though, although I can't imagine women having the issue of not being able to get a partner.

Yes your right.....

 

[XLNC]

Some years ago, I was probably a borderline porn-cum-wanking addict too, not having had any intimate female contact for aeons. Then I more or less did go cold turkey, refraining from my usual daily serving (or overdose) of celluloid sirens and keeping my hand off it most weeks, until my system gradually seemed to recalibrate to a more normal state, if not quite a factory reset.

Since then, I began punting regularly to get my fix of female touch and pseudo-affection, and briefly came close to being addicted to that, with multiple bookings a week or on a weekend. Punting is a much more expensive exercise than wanking, of course, so that did have a material impact on my bank balance. I shudder when I think how many thousands have been lost forever, when -- invested wisely -- they could have been earning a nice return. So I could go punting...

I think presently I'm at the stage where one or two relatively low cost RnT bookings a week is sustainable and not too unhealthy from a psychological perspective, supplemented by the occasional solo session with some HD porn. It's been months since I've had a FS booking, though may treat myself once before year's end.

So yes, masturbation in the wrong hands can be a dangerous weapon. We all have to tame the beast and be masters of our domain.

Until May, National Masturbation Month, when we should all go nuts and get it out of our system for the year.

 

[Dallas]

Some years ago, I was probably a borderline porn-cum-wanking addict too, not having had any intimate female contact for aeons. Then I more or less did go cold turkey, refraining from my usual daily serving (or overdose) of celluloid sirens and keeping my hand off it most weeks, until my system gradually seemed to recalibrate to a more normal state, if not quite a factory reset.

Since then, I began punting regularly to get my fix of female touch and pseudo-affection, and briefly came close to being addicted to that, with multiple bookings a week or on a weekend. Punting is a much more expensive exercise than wanking, of course, so that did have a material impact on my bank balance. I shudder when I think how many thousands have been lost forever, when -- invested wisely -- they could have been earning a nice return. So I could go punting...

I think presently I'm at the stage where one or two relatively low cost RnT bookings a week is sustainable and not too unhealthy from a psychological perspective, supplemented by the occasional solo session with some HD porn. It's been months since I've had a FS booking, though may treat myself once before year's end.

So yes, masturbation in the wrong hands can be a dangerous weapon. We all have to tame the beast and be masters of our domain.

Until May, National Masturbation Month, when we should all go nuts and get it out of our system for the year.

I can so relate to everything you've said

 

[The Brood87]

Well faking it is a issue for us women but good on you, you must be a one of a kind type of bloke ..I dont think i've ever met a man that would fake it for the pleasure of the woman pat on the back to you (in your sticky situation) hehehe
ill keep you posted on how im keeping. but just to confirm cold turkey means not even just a little quick rub????

xoxo Miss Indy

Cold turkey is no touching at all...get someone else to help you when the urge hits u

 

[Dallas]

Cold turkey is no touching at all...get someone else to help you when the urge hits u

Oh i thought going cold turkey meant u could use a cold turkey? i didn't because I'm chicken but hmm

 

[XLNC]

It means you throttle a turkey instead of choking the chicken.

 

[Indy Fire]

Some years ago, I was probably a borderline porn-cum-wanking addict too, not having had any intimate female contact for aeons. Then I more or less did go cold turkey, refraining from my usual daily serving (or overdose) of celluloid sirens and keeping my hand off it most weeks, until my system gradually seemed to recalibrate to a more normal state, if not quite a factory reset.

Since then, I began punting regularly to get my fix of female touch and pseudo-affection, and briefly came close to being addicted to that, with multiple bookings a week or on a weekend. Punting is a much more expensive exercise than wanking, of course, so that did have a material impact on my bank balance. I shudder when I think how many thousands have been lost forever, when -- invested wisely -- they could have been earning a nice return. So I could go punting...

I think presently I'm at the stage where one or two relatively low cost RnT bookings a week is sustainable and not too unhealthy from a psychological perspective, supplemented by the occasional solo session with some HD porn. It's been months since I've had a FS booking, though may treat myself once before year's end.

So yes, masturbation in the wrong hands can be a dangerous weapon. We all have to tame the beast and be masters of our domain.

Until May, National Masturbation Month, when we should all go nuts and get it out of our system for the year.

Your really good with words this reply has just blown me away!!!
xoxo

 

[Natee]

My masturbation and porn addiction started from a very early age. I think a very abusive childhood (mental physical and sexual) triggered it.

All I would do is basically masturbate and watch porn when ever I had spare time. Even if I wasn't horny id just watch porn and eventually start masturbating. Up to 6 times a day.

I lost my virginity to an escort last year in October (I was 33). I didnt end up cumming, or even experiencing any kind of sexual satisfaction but it felt like a massive weight just fell off me.

OK. No longer a virgin. Maybe I didn't enjoy it because I was nervous? maybe.

Saw another girl. Basically the same thing. 30 minutes of straight full on sex. CG, reverse CG, doggy, on her back. I could tell she was enjoying her self though... NO cum. OK wtf.

3rd girl, same. 4th, 5th, nothing changing...

Read a little online and learned that I have been masturbating for so long that I have to retrain my brain on how to get off...

I finally busted a nut after the 7th time. OK nice... Now I had other problems. I was getting addicted to escorts. All I could think about was sex. sex sex sex sex... I would spend my last dollar on escorts. The worst was when it was a bad punt. It happened for than a few times.

Then something else happened... I just wasn't happy punting anymore. The joy kinda fizzled out. I started seeing escorts for female interaction. Wasn't about the sex anymore.

It made me depressed. I wanted something real. I wanted to cuddle with someone who I didn't pay for. I wanted it to be genuine. I wanted a girlfriend.


Long story short, found a friend online. It was friends only. We were both happy that way. We ended up being best friends. I think I was falling for her. 3 months later, we ended up having a big fight. She then told me that she thought she was falling in love with me. That really hurt.... its been 2 months and I haven't seen or spoken to her and ive just been a mess since. I miss her so much. I miss getting drunk with her, talking shit, doing crazzy stuff... miss her smile, her voice,....it sucks...

I am back to being addicted to porn. Its worse than ever. Punting still doesn't do anything for me. Havent been in a while anyway. Not that I can afford it.

So yeah, porn addiction > sex addiction > wanting more than just sex > falling in love with someone > having your heart broken > back to porn addiction.

Sorry for my huge post. You start writing and you just cant stop lol

 

[Indy Fire]

My masturbation and porn addiction started from a very early age. I think a very abusive childhood (mental physical and sexual) triggered it.

All I would do is basically masturbate and watch porn when ever I had spare time. Even if I wasn't horny id just watch porn and eventually start masturbating. Up to 6 times a day.

I lost my virginity to an escort last year in October (I was 33). I didnt end up cumming, or even experiencing any kind of sexual satisfaction but it felt like a massive weight just fell off me.

OK. No longer a virgin. Maybe I didn't enjoy it because I was nervous? maybe.

Saw another girl. Basically the same thing. 30 minutes of straight full on sex. CG, reverse CG, doggy, on her back. I could tell she was enjoying her self though... NO cum. OK wtf.

3rd girl, same. 4th, 5th, nothing changing...

Read a little online and learned that I have been masturbating for so long that I have to retrain my brain on how to get off...

I finally busted a nut after the 7th time. OK nice... Now I had other problems. I was getting addicted to escorts. All I could think about was sex. sex sex sex sex... I would spend my last dollar on escorts. The worst was when it was a bad punt. It happened for than a few times.

Then something else happened... I just wasn't happy punting anymore. The joy kinda fizzled out. I started seeing escorts for female interaction. Wasn't about the sex anymore.

It made me depressed. I wanted something real. I wanted to cuddle with someone who I didn't pay for. I wanted it to be genuine. I wanted a girlfriend.


Long story short, found a friend online. It was friends only. We were both happy that way. We ended up being best friends. I think I was falling for her. 3 months later, we ended up having a big fight. She then told me that she thought she was falling in love with me. That really hurt.... its been 2 months and I haven't seen or spoken to her and ive just been a mess since. I miss her so much. I miss getting drunk with her, talking shit, doing crazzy stuff... miss her smile, her voice,....it sucks...

I am back to being addicted to porn. Its worse than ever. Punting still doesn't do anything for me. Havent been in a while anyway. Not that I can afford it.

So yeah, porn addiction > sex addiction > wanting more than just sex > falling in love with someone > having your heart broken > back to porn addiction.

Sorry for my huge post. You start writing and you just cant stop lol

Well if it makes you feel any better im back in the same position with a saw clit
xx

 

[Natee]

Well if it makes you feel any better im back in the same position with a saw clit
xx

Ouch, sorry to hear I have to force my self to have a break as I get pretty sore. I also dont masturbate the conventional way (up and down on the shaft) I like, really have to concentrate on the head and use pressure... so strange talking about it so openly lol.

 

[Langtrees VIP Darwin]

ohhh pause it hasn't had a effect on my life yet but it does affect my walking when times are tough (super horny F me styles) i extra cross my legs over when i walk so my lingerie rubs on my clit.

xx

I wondered why your legs are crossed over and tapping fast. I thought that smile was to say hello to me, but obviously i was wrong hehe

 

[pause78]

Well if it makes you feel any better im back in the same position with a saw clit
xx

That's not good, but I do hope it's been kissed better by now.

 

[homer]

Absolutely nothing wrong with self loving, not an addiction...roll it on and rub it on...mmmmm yeah

 

[Toby spec]

Well if it makes you feel any better im back in the same position with a saw clit
xx

I definately know how u feel it's so hard to stop once u get used to that release! The problems when u try and stop the urge just build up more and more so that it's almost impossible to switch off from

 

[Lexy Of London]

My masturbation and porn addiction started from a very early age. I think a very abusive childhood (mental physical and sexual) triggered it.

All I would do is basically masturbate and watch porn when ever I had spare time. Even if I wasn't horny id just watch porn and eventually start masturbating. Up to 6 times a day.

I lost my virginity to an escort last year in October (I was 33). I didnt end up cumming, or even experiencing any kind of sexual satisfaction but it felt like a massive weight just fell off me.

OK. No longer a virgin. Maybe I didn't enjoy it because I was nervous? maybe.

Saw another girl. Basically the same thing. 30 minutes of straight full on sex. CG, reverse CG, doggy, on her back. I could tell she was enjoying her self though... NO cum. OK wtf.

3rd girl, same. 4th, 5th, nothing changing...

Read a little online and learned that I have been masturbating for so long that I have to retrain my brain on how to get off...

I finally busted a nut after the 7th time. OK nice... Now I had other problems. I was getting addicted to escorts. All I could think about was sex. sex sex sex sex... I would spend my last dollar on escorts. The worst was when it was a bad punt. It happened for than a few times.

Then something else happened... I just wasn't happy punting anymore. The joy kinda fizzled out. I started seeing escorts for female interaction. Wasn't about the sex anymore.

It made me depressed. I wanted something real. I wanted to cuddle with someone who I didn't pay for. I wanted it to be genuine. I wanted a girlfriend.

Long story short, found a friend online. It was friends only. We were both happy that way. We ended up being best friends. I think I was falling for her. 3 months later, we ended up having a big fight. She then told me that she thought she was falling in love with me. That really hurt.... its been 2 months and I haven't seen or spoken to her and ive just been a mess since. I miss her so much. I miss getting drunk with her, talking shit, doing crazzy stuff... miss her smile, her voice,....it sucks...

I am back to being addicted to porn. Its worse than ever. Punting still doesn't do anything for me. Havent been in a while anyway. Not that I can afford it.

So yeah, porn addiction > sex addiction > wanting more than just sex > falling in love with someone > having your heart broken > back to porn addiction.

Sorry for my huge post. You start writing and you just cant stop lol

Dear Nate, had to reply after reading what you wrote, how are things now? Have you met anyone else online? I can empathise with alot of what you have been through. It can be scary for someone when they realise they have developed feelings for the other person, sometimes I believe it just has to do with timing as much as anything. We are all at different stages in our life on this planet and some of us are more ready for a serious relationship, and some less so and might still need to do some self-work on their soul and spirit before they feel ready. I hope your last experience did not get you down, as they say get back on the horse and follow your heart Nate. I hope we all find what we are looking for. You are not alone.

Take care and private message me if ever you want to chat freely about relationships etc. I am no expert but I have had my share of ups and downs (and ins and outs but that's another story) LOL

Lexy xo

 

[Indy Fire]

Omg Im doing well it has been almost a month but Im struggling to feel proud because clients keep getting me to play with myself so Im kinda confused am i still masturbating??????

 

[Dallas]

Omg Im doing well it has been almost a month but Im struggling to feel proud because clients keep getting me to play with myself so Im kinda confused am i still masturbating??????

I think in your case you just have a hands on approach to your job

 

[XLNC]

Well done, Indy, you should feel proud. I think if you are with someone and they are asking you to play with yourself, that's a free kick (or frig) and doesn't count.

Stay on the wagon and treat yourself to the occasional indulgent solo session; it'll feel so much better, like you've really earned it.

 

[Happy2]

Yes well done Indy
I am sure like many compulsions rather than addictions
You will get far more enjoyment masturbating because you want to Not because you have to

 

[pause78]

Omg Im doing well it has been almost a month but Im struggling to feel proud because clients keep getting me to play with myself so Im kinda confused am i still masturbating??????

Love your work Indy, you're a legend. Yeah I agree with everyone else, work doesn't apply and you should definitely feel proud of yourself!

Wish I had your willpower!

 

[Indy Fire]

Well done, Indy, you should feel proud. I think if you are with someone and they are asking you to play with yourself, that's a free kick (or frig) and doesn't count.

Stay on the wagon and treat yourself to the occasional indulgent solo session; it'll feel so much better, like you've really earned it.

I think you may be right and I'm going to set a special date in about 3 weeks and buy a beautiful new toy for my solo session hehe xxxxx