When I had a partner, we would go out for my birthday but I stopped when I was on my own because singing "happy birthday to me" doesn't feel right. I did enjoy birthdays when I was a teenager and you got presents, but now it just seems like celebrating being one year closer to dying and one more reminder that you're less desirable in a society that celebrates youth and wealth, rather than getting older. Like people send you a special card every year with a glittery number on it, to remind you and tell you how pleased they are yet you go for a job and the smaller you can make that number the better your chances, why can't people send you a card with a smaller number on it and help your job prospects? and also the larger that number the more doctors want to prod and poke you but the less ginger wants to